I sat in the grass and waited.
What was I doing? The dog smiled at me. The dog was not concerned, and she was happy to just hang out with me. Her diminutive tail wagged. How wonderful it would be, I thought to myself, if life were as easy and simple as involuntarily wagging your tail. Maybe that is how some people live? I don't know? I have tried but I have not achieved that relaxed life style yet. I need more practice.
As for myself, I had to call for help.
She came and helped me up off the ground and took me inside. She said it was a panic attack, but that I should not punish myself. Punishing myself appears to be one of my involuntary gifts. I don't know why. She gave me bag of frozen peas from the freezer and put them on the back of my neck. She sat me down in my favorite reading chair and waited with me until I calmed down.
I don't know what I would do without her. I am grateful for her patient and tender care.
